I spend hours not being able to really see myself

I spend hours not being able to really see myself

I spend hours not being able to really see myself

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I spend hours not being able to really see myself

"Who are we when we look in the mirror?"

2023

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In a moment of deep crisis, I decided to recover to ease my pain. Sharing my thoughts and channeling them into a concrete product helped me make sense of my suffering.

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