"It takes many miles to swim to a self."

2025

2h 8m

6.8(88 votes)

Drama

Overview

Plagued by an abusive childhood, a woman finds escape in competitive swimming, sexual experimentation, toxic relationships, and addiction before ultimately finding her voice through writing.

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Cast & crew

10 featured cast members

Starring

Imogen Poots

Lidia Yuknavitch

Thora Birch

Claudia

Jim Belushi

Ken Kesey

Tom Sturridge

Devin

Earl Cave

Philip

Michael Epp

Mike

Charlie Carrick

Andy Mingo

Susannah Flood

Dorothy

Kim Gordon

Photographer

Esmé Creed-Miles

Claire

Creative team

Directed by: Kristen Stewart
Written by: Kristen Stewart
Produced by: Michael A. Pruss
Andy Mingo

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